Good News, Good News!

My prayer was answered yesterday!

I have been wondering for the past few weeks if today was going to be my last day at the Capitol but yesterday I found out I get to stay until the 30th of May. It is crazy how stressed out I had become over this unknown. I just kept asking the Lord for an answer... and got nothing in return-- well that isn't totally true...

He did answer me over and over again: just wait, I will take care of you.

I just never got the answer I wanted. Would I still have an income next week? I am so dense sometimes. I know the Lord is faithful. I know He isn't going to let me starve. I just wanted to be in the know.

He never gives us an answer before we need one-- Nope, He allows us to go through the waiting period so He can strengthen our faith and teach us to keep our eyes fixed on Him alone.

I don't know why I was surprised by it but He answered me just in the nick of time.

So for the next two weeks I am going to practice keeping my eyes firmly fixed on my Savior. I know He has the perfect job for me! And I have to believe my friend Nate is right, the Lord is preparing me for my next job and preparing that job for me.

KK and E-Smitty...

Two of the best friends a girl could ask for!

I wish I were clever enough to write a sweet poem or haiku about how much these two girls mean to me. But really there isn't a poet or person who could put into words how much they mean to me!

Y'all are:

Silly, Spontaneous, Funny, Godly, Clever, Charming, Creatvie, Beautiful, Blessed, Sweet, Southern Goodness...

what catches they will be for the man of their dreams!

I love you both dearly... we laugh and always have a good time. You brighten my life in every way.

I LOVE YOU MUCHO!!!!

It's on the Tip of My Heart

OK, I guess you can call me cheesy. But I can't remember if Bebo Norman coined this expression or I did. I think Bebo did... I actually believe I coined the expression, which I doubt anyone really uses, it's on the tip of my brain.

I didn't come up with this expression because I'm so naturally witty-- No the truth is my brain often goes slower than my mouth and I couldn't remember the expression it's on the tip of my tongue. So I made up my own expression. This is something I have been doing for years. I remember the general idea of a saying or expression but I don't remember the particulars-- like the actual words that belong in the expression. So I express it as best I can in good old Melissa fashion. I guess you could call them "Melissaisms."

But I digress...

I haven't listened to Bebo Norman in a long while, but this morning I decided to put him on while I was getting ready. One thing I love about my i-Pod is that you can select an artist and it will shuffle through all their songs. I love the surprise in not knowing what song will be next. So, you guessed it: "It's on the Tip of My Heart" came on. And like a flood, everything I have been feeling for the past couple of weeks came out in a pretty tied up package.

Words have been on the tip of my heart but I haven't been able to get them out.

I know the Lord loves teaching us. So in His sweet, sweet way he reaffirms what He is trying to show me this morning by reminding me of a passage in Romans: In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will. (8:26-27)

I don't have to worry! I don't have to fear! Even though I have a heavy heart full of questions I can't express and a desire for answers I don't need right now-- I don't have to fret. Instead I will Rejoice in the Lord always!

I love how the Lord will use anything and everything to bless our hearts just when we need it!

It's on the tip of my heart, the words to say
But I fall apart and I walk away
There's an angry world pressed against my back
And at every turn I keep looking back
And I know you promise me
Love through eternity
So why can't I just hold on

I want to live, I want to love
But I'm afraid my simple faith will never be enough
I want to laugh, I want to be set free
And let you hold all that my soul has deep inside of me
But I don't know where to start
It's on the tip of my heart

So would you take my hand, because I'm sinking in
To this life I've made, but don't understand
The clock moves so slowly, but time goes so fast
In this whirlwind world that will never last
This love you're giving me
It's not just make believe
Help me just to hold one
You open the sky, and open my eyes
And all my fears are scattered away
So I walk in grace, because I've seen your face
You are all that matters to me

So I'm gonna live, I'm gonna love
I'm not afraid because your grace will always be enough
I'm gonna laugh, I'm gonna be set free
And let you hold all that my soul has deep inside of me
You have shown me where to start
It's on the tip of my heart

Girls and Shoes:: Boys and Guns

I love shoes! I bet most of my friends know this about me. One day I tallied up [roughly] how much I spent on all the shoes in my closet and let me just say it was more than I would like to admit to anyone reading this. But I think I am not the only girl who has this... hmm... problem.

I think most girls would at least admit they like shoes. A good pair of shoes can make you feel like the most beautiful girl at the party. Shoes are fun, they are cute, they can make you feel taller, slimmer, sexier, dare I even say more comfortable. I don't know what it is but something about them causes me to fall head head over heels in love.

I'd like to think I have a pair for almost any occasion. There are the work shoes. Casual shoes. Going out shoes. Getting dressed up shoes. Running shoes. Outdoor shoes. The really pretty but not very comfortable shoes. Shoes in every color and for every season.

I always wondered if guys had something that they could be so, might I say obsessed with. At one point I thought it might be cars, but really cars aren't like shoes. Most people don't have a car for every occasion. But this weekend I think I discovered what it is... GUNS.

Boys love guns! The look on my friend's faces when they were pulling out all of their different guns was priceless. They all had to hold each one and try them out. It was like me showing off a beautiful pair of designer shoes I found on sale for some ridiculously cheap price. Someone would ask to hold them or try them on.

I don't know how much a gun cost but I would like to think if one guy tallied up all his guns it would be more than all my shoes!

Maybe all guys don't love guns as much as my guy friends do, but I would like to think that any guy would feel more manly holding a gun. Nothing says "I'm a real man" like a guy with a gun over his shoulder or on his hip.

They had shot guns, riffles, pistols, hand guns... a gun to make you feel more powerful, stronger, taller, might I even say smarter. Guns for hunting, guns for target practice. Guns that are fast and guns that are precise.

A gun for any occasion, maybe not in every color.