Random Ramblings

Today is Monday, it's about one o'clock in the afternoon and I haven't really done anything with my day.

[but don't worry, I'm not sitting at work doing nothing... I have Mondays off]

I usually wake up whenever the spirit moves me, make a pot of coffee and sit in front of the computer trying to get things done I don't get done the other six days of the week... you know reply to emails I should have responded to weeks ago, pay bills, etc. etc. Today is no different. Although, it probably should be different. My first day back at work after being gone on vacation I found out my hours were going to be cut back. This honestly wouldn't be the worst thing in the world if I worked a normal forty hour week, but since I only work Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Thursdays it felt like the worst news ever.

The first week I think I was in shock and probably still a bit jetlag. [I am so slow in recovering from traveling abroad] Last week I was just mad. And this week I am at a loss. I know I should probably be pouring over job sites looking for something, but honestly I have no idea what to look for. Sure, I've been doing interior design work for the longest and have the most experience with it. But from what I've heard firms are laying people off, not looking for new help. I know I don't want to go back into politics. That is one door I often thank the Lord for closing.

So what do I do next?

I wonder when things like this happen if it isn't God's way of giving us a little kick in the pants to move us onto the next thing. I'm not sure what the next thing is for me, but I am knocking on the Lord's door asking Him to show me. I don't want to go out there looking aimlessly-- I hate spinning my wheels aimlessly. It is me and the Lord in this and I'm going to stay put until He gives me some kind of direction... I just wonder where it will lead...