1.07.2010

Hope, Snow, Love, and an Update

Happy New Year friends!

I know, I know we are already seven days into 2010, but all things considered it is still relatively new. And it is still happy! I can't remember being as excited about a new year as I am about this one. I'm not sure what all is in store for the year, but I know that God is good and only wants the best for me so I'm excited to see all He has for me...

"You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and the hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands."
Isaiah 55:12

I am siting in my office at home watching the snow flakes fall outside as I type. My heart is warm despite the cold outside. I just love the snow! Every time it falls from the sky I am reminded of God's sweet love for me. It is a visible reminder of something that can seem so intangible at times.

"Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the Lord who has compassion on you.
Isaiah 54:10
I realize if you read my blog for updates on my life and not just to read my random ramblings you might be wondering how the "big test" went and if I have my results yet. So, let me tell you! The day had finally arrived and let's just say I could have been a bit more prepared. I took the test at Herzing College in Buckhead, which I didn't know existed until a few months ago when I registered for the test. It was very strange to arrive at Lenox Square Mall at 8am on a Saturday morning to take such an important test (the school is located in Lenox). I hadn't studied like I should have, but I felt pretty peaceful as I sat down to take the test.
Oh boy was it hard!

I left the test that day knowing I had been obedient to take the test and glad to have finally taken it. I honestly didn't expect to receive some amazingly high score, but I also knew it was totally in the Lord's hands. If He wanted me to go to law school He would make it clear to me that was what I was supposed to do and if I wasn't supposed to He would make that just as clear.

On the 28th of December I was surprised to receive my score early. [I was expecting it on the 4th of January] It was low. Very low. Too low to even consider applying to any law programs. At first I was sad, and my pride was very hurt. I thought surely I was smart enough to just walk into the test center [to take one of the hardest tests out there] and do okay. But then as I spoke to some friends and my parents about it and I realized I got my answer.

It was just a clear "no."

So, I won't be attending law school this fall. And I am okay with that. I'm not sure what I'll be doing this fall or even this spring for that matter. But I am learning to be okay with that.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6
I've taken a job as a senate aide at the state capitol for the 2010 legislative session. I'll probably be there until April. After that I don't know where God will call me. But I'm going to keep my ears and my heart open to whatever he might call me to do. And for now I have a job and I am very thankful for that!

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